Suzanne Boben

I’m going to have to start recording music here if these currents continue. I feel like the divine has been camped out in my little townhouse. I feel like I’ve been living in a heaven on Earth. It’s literally in my kitchen, in my dining room, in my bedroom. It has become my reality. There are angels here with me, and I feel a number of ascended types standing behind me watching these words… they’re whispering words to me.

I grapple with saying things like that, because obviously that sounds completely weird-ass-woo-woo. Who says that shit? What are you smoking? I assure you, there are no drugs involved here. That is indeed my current experience, but it’s not the result of a drug or even some spiritual practice designed to artificially induce such feelings and sensations. I might argue, I didn’t even ask for it … except that I did. Continue reading »

I write these things because most of you know me in a way that’s more grounded, practical, diligent, reliable, dependable — oddly very Earth energy, of which I have none! I write these things to contrast your perceptions of me with something that seems possibly very uncharacteristic. Why? Well, to make you think, I think. What the hell is she talking about? Why is she talking like that? That’s not like her, so WTF is going on there?

Maybe you don’t care enough to investigate. That’s fine. Keep scrolling. But as I always do, I lay bait for those hungry for something more and, if that bait, spurs your appetite, or even irritates you to the point of demanding answers, I suppose I’ve done my job.

So here I find myself in the midst of heaven on Earth. My experience for the last 10 days has been ethereal. Am I special in that respect. No. I asked for this. I demanded this for myself. I intended this. I wanted this.

I have struggled all through life, just like everyone else. I’ve experienced amazing things, and I’ve experienced the feelings of despair. I may be different, however, in that I’ve pursued tangents where the message was given, “Ask for what you want.”

Ask who?

WTF is this woo woo mumbo jumbo happy joy joy mantra crap? As one of multi-dimensional energies, meaning I have a smattering of extremely logical air energy, extremely passionate fire energy, and extremely powerful water energy, I say that first line there humorously for those who’ve bothered to read this far, but who have yet to buy this heaven on Earth crap. I get you. I know. I know. I have zero patience for woo woo fluffy shit written in deep metaphor – get to the point for fuck’s sake and tell me which way to go here. Yes, I have that energy in me too.

But before I lose the point, the point being, “Ask for what you want,” … asking for what you want is a good way to go, assuming you’re looking for a way. And as far as who you’re asking, well, foremost, it’s you. You’re asking yourself to give permission to want, and to desire. But if you’re a bit more advanced down this path, you know, one of the big secrets is to ask for help with things like this.

There was a conversation that occurred this morning, amongst the group that formed around The Sophia Code. There was a conversation that was, I’ll just say, loosely about asking for guidance, about “the way.” What way? Well, the best way. What’s the best way?

See, this is the message for today, January 1st, the one day of the year where you stand and look at your pure potential for every other day in the coming year. We contemplate,

“What do I choose for myself?”

“How do I know what’s best?”

“Which way?

“What’s the right way?”

I recorded a voice message, because I wanted the fire in my voice to be included with the message. I said,

“The big secret I’ve found, is to choose what you want. We always want to know upfront, ‘Well? What’s the best choice to make?’ And we actually mean that without regard for what we truly desire.”

What I meant there was, we’re always willing to sacrifice what we truly desire in lieu of “what’s right.” Well isn’t that an interesting thought. Is what we want NOT the right way? Oh, look there … one of those subtle little lies an authority created, to throw us off track.

Whoops, I thought that out loud.

They created that lie because IT’S ABSOLUTELY THE WAY :-O This is how life works — this is one of the big secrets hiding in plain sight. What you deeply want and desire IS how you know what the right way is. We are, unfortunately, trained from a young age that “the way,” is not tied to our desires, but rather something some authority outside of ourselves provides for us. The authority will tell you what you want.

As a result, we then spend our lives questioning “the way.” We seek the authority to tell us the way. I literally did this myself in my session the other day. I asked for guidance about how to look at a situation, so I could more appropriately find “the right way.” That’s when my higher self responded with, “What is it you were wanting in that situation?” Therein lies the gold.

When our higher selves or The Collective or any of these spirit people turn the situation back at us and say, “You’re asking us to tell you what you want … “ they’re sort of trying to get us to see the ill-logic of our thinking. I personally prefer to be cracked upside the head. It would be more effective for people like me, to hear,

“This is your adventure. Why would you ask anyone outside yourself for the way? You think there’s a wrong way — there’s no wrong way. There’s only your way, and by default, within this reality, it is the right way. Now to know if you’re going the right way, you only need to ask yourself, ‘Am I moving?’ and if you are, you’re going the right way. If you’re not moving, asking an authority for the way, you’re simply delaying your adventure, which is always correct for you. Move and be on your way.”

“Ok …” you say, “Right … yeah… BUT.”

I know. “HOW DO I KNOW WHICH WAY TO MOVE?”

Here’s the bottom line, the big secret, the simple answer, it’s always the simplistic answer. It’s following your bliss. It’s knowing what you want. It’s choosing what you want over every other subtle message in your life that whispers don’t.

I continued,

“Coming into a body is to say, wow, I sense all this. I feel all this. What should I choose more of? What do I want here? What do I want more of? When we constantly fear that what we want is somehow off track, when we fear that what we truly desire is off track, well, then we start asking spirit people, what’s the right track? What’s the divine path? I want to be on track. I’ll sacrifice my desires to be on track.”

Remember, there’s only one track — your track — and it’s always right, so long as you’re moving and you move based on what you want.

What is it you desire?

The task is, to choose. Choose what you want. Know what it is you want and desire.

Don’t scoff. Don’t scoff at the absurdity of that — that would be some deep programming activating there to make you ignore this fundamental truth about being human. You’ve read this far. Don’t be taken out by the programming, this far down this rabbit hole.

The task is, to choose. Choose what you want. Know what it is you want and desire. Then let those desires fuel your actions, fuel the steps that make you move. If you’re moving, you’re moving in the right direction. Make the life that your desires reveal. Our programming has been extremely powerful — I feel this myself — this incredible aversion toward indulging in the gift of saying yes to what I want. It is the way and the authorities know very well that if you succeed at following what you want, that you will have no need for them. See them for what they are.

Somewhere, at some point, I wanted and desired to experience heaven on Earth. I want to act as a gateway for heaven on Earth. I know that I am a gateway for heaven on Earth. I want to be what I am. I want to be free from any thoughts that delay the expression of this desire. I want to express heaven, on Earth, through my human presence. I want this. I let these desires move me. This way cannot be wrong. It is mine. I choose it. And I am living it.

Amen. Hallelujah. May you find passionate clarity about what you want in the coming days and months — in this year.