Suzanne Boben

I’ve said it. I have a dissertation about love brewing. This is not it, but it starts to get at it. Love is the way. That’s not simply a nice cliché. It _is_ The Way, but to truly understand why, you have to walk The Way, and that takes faith. All of us spiritual folk, we love to hurl these nice sentiments all about, but it’s hard to grasp the deeper meaning when you haven’t arrived yet, at the point on the path where that reality exists in its full expression. You gotta keep moving! Read the transcript while you listen »

Transcript

Love.

Love.

Okay, that’s the topic; that’s the topic today.

Love.

I wish that I could somehow organize this process that I’m going through. It’s sort of a silly thing to say because you don’t know what you’re walking into each day. But in hindsight, it makes me want to … I wish I could organize this, and lay it out in a logical way that the mind can follow and understand and apply for itself … meaning those who may be listening to these sentiments. I wish I could do it. I can’t. I can’t. It happens in the moment and if you’re on any spiritual trajectory, you understand the importance of that statement. It all happens in the moment. I can only tell you what’s happening right now. You can’t organize it because there is no past, there’s no future. This is what’s happening right now.

We are in the middle of some very challenging energy. If you’re following me on social media or you’re reading my posts at my website, I have been referring to that. In fact, I just posted something today, April 22nd, about these energies. I didn’t elaborate too much, but my take on it, my take on it is that … and this is from my personal experience over the last few weeks … the orchestration of energies, this universal coordination on behalf of humanity, is making us face things that we are denying.

if you are following me in any way you know I’ve been through this. My whole video on self-loathing was about that. That was the universe, pointing right at the thing I needed to undo. It was terrifying, scary and dreadful. You can go watch that video if you want. But the universe is doing this to all of us, and a lot of people are agitated, agitated about it right now. They are agitated, and they want to point fingers at all this stuff outside of themselves. It’s not out there. It’s not out there. It’s within. But that’s not what I’m going to talk about. You can read my posts. I elaborate on all of that in those posts, in those videos.

What I want to talk about here is love.

Love is what comes in the aftermath of that shadow work. I have a dissertation brewing on this. I don’t know if this is going to be it. I don’t think so. I feel the desire to keep this short today, but I have, again, another expanded perspective of love. You hear … we all say this …

“Choose love,”

“There’s only love,”

“Love is the way.”

You know all the clichés — they don’t get at the reality. They point in the direction but when you’re looking from the starting point and saying, “Okay, I choose love … but I don’t feel any different. My experience isn’t any different.” Oh I empathize with that. I empathize with it, because you can’t … those clichés speak to an experience down the path, and they’re trying to convey it back to the beginning of the path or midway to the path. They try to encourage you to keep going down the path.

This is probably why we have the word faith. You have to have faith to keep walking this path. Otherwise, you can’t know what’s three quarters down the path when you’re only halfway down it. You can’t have it. You can’t intellectualize it. You can’t study it. You can’t anything it. It doesn’t exist where you are. Something exists where you are. You’re having the experience of that where you are, but you have to have faith to keep walking down that path, to get to those things that are down there.

I’m in one of those places. Some of you may have already passed through here. You may be there. You may be approaching there. Oh, boy. It just blows my mind how little, how little we see from the point at which we view. There are so many hints and little nudges and bits of encouragement to keep us moving down the path, but we stand there and stomp our feet and say,

“I don’t see it! I don’t feel that! Therefore, it’s not true! What are you smoking?”

I’ve said to my friend Allison a couple of times over the last week, when I’ve said certain things, I’m like, “…and here’s the crazy lady commentary, right? Here’s where people will perceive me as being … I’ve lost it. I’m out there.” I’m telling you, this is how it works. You have got to keep your faith and keep moving down that path. Do not stop there and stomp your feet saying,

“That doesn’t exist.”

“That’s not reality.”

“That’s not truth.”

It’s not pretending to be your truth. It can’t be from where you stand. Your experience is telling you what’s true, at the point on the path where you’re standing.

All of those little hints and nudges, those bits of love that illuminate the path, they are only capable of encouraging you to keep moving. Eventually you get there, at that point and you’re like, “I understand what it meant! I understand what it meant!”

You’ve heard me say a couple of times, a few times, I’ll say it often, “The kingdom of heaven is within.” That’s one of those things. If you’re at the very beginning of that path, you’re like, “What does that mean? That’s a nice metaphor.” And you might go so far as to decide what that metaphor means, or you might listen to somebody else’s opinion of what that means. If you’re not at the point on the path where that truth was born, where those words were given to that thing, you don’t, you can’t understand it as the truth that it is. You can catch a glimpse, But those things can only be sort of an encouragement to go and get it. Go and get it.

So I’m at this point. I’ve done some things over the last, now I’ll say, three weeks that freed my attention, we’ll say. I had a lot of attention here, on certain things, past life things. They’re not even from this lifetime. They were past life, you could loosely say traumas, things that I felt went wrong, things where I let myself get hung up and I got stuck there.

I made reference the other day to having been stuck in a tomb. I was stuck in a tomb. I had to leave. I don’t think that had anything to do with the self-loathing issue. I think the two were separate. They might not be. I don’t know. I don’t know. But in other words, big, big things from other times, different aspects of myself … Suzanne wasn’t stuck in the tomb. Suzanne wasn’t self-loathing. Aspects of my greater self were, and those aspects, they’re all happening now.

There’s no such thing as a past life [actually]. It’s a parallel life. And those experiences are a part of your awareness in this lifetime. You can’t not be. You’re not separate from them. So it’s important when you become aware of them, or if you start to feel this agitation … address those things. Go after them. Keep moving down this path.

Use what it is you think you desire, what you are passionate about, to propel yourself. Because none of this will make any sense, it will be unclear, until you get to the point on the path where it reveals itself. I am having an unbelievable experience of love right now. I am understanding. I’ve hit the point on the path where it was birthed, this phrase or this encouragement about loving your enemy, love your neighbor, love anybody, even those who seem completely opposite to you. I’m not going to elaborate on that, but I’ll say this.

You may have a funny experience. I can’t believe that I would be the only one who’s had this experience. I think everybody has this experience at some point where you have this resonance, this draw, this pull towards someone that you perceive intellectually as opposite from you, unlike you, someone you’d never connect with, right? The mind has all the reasons why you’d never be drawn to that person, but yet you are. And in some cases, it can be completely, it could feel completely illogical. You may debate, you may argue, you may even fight with this kind of person, because intellectually, you’ve taken positions that seem very different. But yet, there’s a draw, there’s a pull.

It’s my personal belief, that that kind of situation is an opportunity to, I have not thought this through, so I’m finding the words, bear with me. It’s an opportunity to demonstrate this concept that was birthed at this point in the path. Love thy enemy. If you look at this person, and oftentimes anger and frustration and fighting … it isn’t born of wrath. It’s born of passion. It’s born of passion. There’s a draw. There’s a compelling … hopefully you’re following me … there’s a passion. We think we need … the mind thinks we need other people to be standing in our shoes, [in order] to be loved, to share that passion. You don’t. You don’t.

I don’t want to lose my train here. this doesn’t happen with everyone there are lots of people out there who may be completely different from you, 180 degrees different from you. I’m not talking about all of them, I’m talking about the ones where you run into them, you’re like we should never have been friends! We should … there’s nothing that would draw us together otherwise, but you feel this compulsion. You feel the pull. I think these are opportunities for nothing more than to love thy enemy.

Now in truth, they’re not enemies. You know it. You know it. Your mind is like, “No, no, that’s an enemy!” but your heart says, it’s not. It’s not. It’s a struggle. If your mind has not been brought back into balance with your heart, the two will be at odds with each other.

I think these are opportunities, tremendous, like heavenly opportunities between people like this to do one thing. It’s to express love. To recognize that passion and to bring it forth. Let everyone see how diabolically opposed you are. Let them see. Let their minds be confused. How is it you get along?

I consider myself an extreme neutralist when it comes to politics. I’m not involved in that spectrum at all. I have friends who are everywhere on the spectrum. I have friends who are all the way on the right and all the way on the left. I don’t give a shit where you are. I don’t care about that. That stuff is not in my reality. I find it quite ridiculous. It’s not to downplay how you feel, if you’re on that spectrum, but I use it as an example.

I share passion with some of these people, and some may look at that, some on this end of the spectrum can look at me having this passionate relationship with somebody on the other end of the spectrum and say, “How is that even possible? How can you do that?” because they think they’ve got that with me on the other end, right?

This is the point.

What you think and believe doesn’t matter [to me]. That’s not how I’m going to connect or relate with you. It’s clear to me now that if I feel passion with you, if I feel this sense of draw and love with you, then that’s what I’m going to focus on. I’ve been doing this all of my life, but I didn’t have the clarity. I was not far enough down the path yet, to the point where this realization was birthed, where the clarity existed. I had to keep moving. I’ve gotten there. I get it. I can stop trying to illuminate everything I know and feel, as if the passion you feel with someone is about coming to the same point. It’s not. It is not. It’s not the point at all.

The passion is the point. You might be holding wildly different positions about things. Doesn’t matter. They’re going to do what they’re going to do. You’re going to do what you’re going to do. But there’s this passion that needs to be expressed. It is wanting to be expressed. That’s what the universe is doing through you. That’s what it means when people say, The universe is working through me!”

If your mind is not in equilibrium with your heart, you’re going to fight this. You’re going to argue it. You’ll reject it. I get it now. I get it. Stop fighting. Stop resisting. It’s always about love. It’s always about love. It’s the only way. Well, you can resist it. You can resist it as well, but that isn’t “a way.” That’s you standing there, digging your heels in on the path, not moving, not moving forward. You have to choose love to move forward.

Okay. Hopefully this will be the shortest video I’ve done so far. I wanted it to be shorter, but I have to work on it.

Okay, all the love. We’ll talk to you.