Today, a special entry in the historical log of Suzanne, or whatever names I’ve gone by over the eons. Today my heart is wide open; my vessel is empty of its fears. I am free.

As I felt into this, this morning, the wisdom around this process began to flow into my awareness. I wrote a number of things on Facebook to a select group of friends, and I’m sharing them here as well.

I did not take the time to rewrite this in a more formal way. Things could be stated in better ways. Think of it as the play-by-play commentary as it unfolded 🙂

The first bit

I have my heart wide open today. 💗

It’s taken 18 months to achieve this. You’d think, “Well I can open my heart at any time, why do you paint this as such an achievement?”

The mind is a fool without its counterpart, the heart. It proclaims it can do anything if it wanted to. Observe the mind like a spy gathering intel. Watch as it proclaims it can open your heart if it wanted to.

This is the lie we tell ourselves … “if I wanted to.” In other words, if the ego weren’t crushed under the weight of thousand fears, sure we’d open our hearts.

So yes, this is a monumental achievement. It means I’ve overcome every fear around having an open heart. It means I’ve found a strength most cannot imagine. Imagine walking around with your heart wide open. If you recoil in any way, there you go … a sign pointing right at your fears.

Today I’m walking around without a cringe in sight. I am a fearless channel for love. ❤️ ✅

The second bit

Well there’s more to say about this. I’m trying to document my code – illumination continues to land. 

We all secretly struggle with self-confidence, self-love, self-whatever. That is again, the ego, whispering to you, that you are not, and will never be, free.

In this heart-wide-open, fearless state, it becomes apparent that “this” _is_ the achievement that grants you all that “self-stuff.” It is the act and the achievement of opening your heart all the way, that brings these things … not the superficial things the ego and its puppet, the mind, suggest (think, social status, admiration from others, wealth of any kind).

It is the release of all fears and the opening of your heart that brings you that invincible sense of self. This is what it means to be fully in alignment with love.

The third bit

Still more … it’s all coming together. I have the box top for the puzzle now. I’ve been unknowingly rambling about it for months. It’s being out of alignment with love that creates the sensation of fear. The ego uses that to gain control of the mind. The mind looks around thinking, “WTF?” Pulled out of alignment with the core frequency of creation (love) it’s cut off from its feminine counterpart, the heart, that gives it the wisdom it needs to act. Without that wisdom, it must rely on some other “authority,” an authority that those controlling our systems of living, so eagerly provide for us.

We slowly fell into this rut of needing external acknowledgment, external validation and thus, the fear of not getting what you need, came with that.

I’ve been saying over and over in my videos, this is what has happened, but I hadn’t yet opened my heart ALL the way. It was one thing to know it intellectually, partially with my heart, but it’s a whole other thing to feel it completely.

The point to this bit is, there’s a tie between a closed heart and the need for external validation. It’s hard to release the need for external validation when your heart is not yet open. Yet, if your heart is not open, you require validation from others. Self-love – having no need for external validation – is the result of an open heart, a fully open heart.

The last bit

And hopefully the last bit about this – seriously the awareness if pouring in here – this is what it means to be free. A fully open heart is what holds everything we as humans want. That’s putting it simplistically, I know. But ultimately, whether we realize it or not, we want to feel elation again and the only way to feel that is to be in complete alignment with the core frequency of creation, love. When you are, you are free.

The need for external validation, the need for anything outside of yourself, is a tremendous and painful burden. The mind will try to manipulate and control others so you can feel better.

“I neeeeeeeed this, and you’re not giving it to me.”

We make rules for others and then judge them for not living up to those rules, rules made out of fear that we aren’t getting what we need… external validation required by a closed heart and floundering mind.

The burden of keeping this state of being is extreme. You are never free.

Freedom – the only freedom you’ll ever want – lies within a fully open heart.

Amen. Hallelujah. HUZZAH.