Suzanne Boben

I’m strangely nervous and anxious today. My hands are sweating and my stomach has that pre-I’m-gonna-lose-my-cookies feeling. This is not normal, not for me. It’s been in the backdrop of my awareness for the last week as I begin to move through The Sophia Code again. I’ve completed Isis. I’ve completed Hathor. Both weeks I feel like I’ve been purging some deep stuff out of those lower chakras, not to mention the unreal experiences of merging with my higher self. I’m on the edge of a divine dance I cannot describe. Maybe I’m nervous about that, but that’s again, not like me at all. I’m usually quite cavalier about this whole process. Continue »

Unusual feelings aside, tomorrow I’m planning to record a new video, describing a game plan for going forward. My higher self and the mentors have continually encourages me to begin communicating. They never say about what. I sit here and think, “I don’t have an organized block of information to share,” but maybe that’s the point. So many speak as if they’ve arrived at some place of coherent understanding. They haven’t. They’re just “in the midst” of it all themselves, but as we all know, uncertainty doesn’t buy followers on the internet. Everyone wants to know The Way so they seek those who sound like they’ve found it. I can’t tell you I’ve found anything. In fact, unless you ask me a direct question, I can’t claim to know anything. There is literally nothing concrete to say until someone gives me a point of focus. Then you get 20 minute voice messages explaining the infinite details you weren’t expecting.

I think this is what the yogis means when they say, the farther along the path you get, the less you realize you know. Everything retreats into the field of potential. One no longer clings to knowledge that only serves to limit the infinite potential of what is. So you end up knowing nothing, until the observer observes. Then there is something to know, limited, but knowable.

Back to the game plan. As I said, my higher self and the mentors have very subtly urged me to get speaking. I honestly have no idea what I’m going to say at this point. I can ramble on about my experience moving through The Sophia Code process. That seems to be a good framework, with words and experiences that can be anchored. I’ll probably do that, but it will likely be more than that. I won’t record a video each day. Most days it will probably just be a voice recording as I mumble my deep thoughts. If there’s anything concrete that I sense, it’s that my own journey down this path will provide trail markers for others. I do have a profound understanding of what unfolded on this planet, information about its origins, the origins of humanity, humanity’s potential as an ensouled species, why the feminine was removed from the picture and why it’s returning to prominence now. I guess I’ll frame my own experiences within that big picture.

My communication here is not going to be organized. I’m going to ramble. Some days I may even rant. But one thing is for sure, this unfolding story will not be dull. If you’re on this path, I will liter it with love bombs and glitter for you. Walk with me and know this same unbelievable joy. Embody it. This planet will benefit from all of our efforts.

Amen. See you tomorrow.

A recorded bit, and About The Image

I decided to give you a bit of commentary via a voice message and in here, I also say a bit about what that image depicts.