Suzanne Boben

If you caught part one of this saga, you may remember that I became aware of an issue with self-loathing during a hypnosis session with Christina Brady. The second part of this saga is almost unbelievable. I thought my issue with self-loathing was resolved after my experience with Sophia that one Saturday afternoon, but that was only one event in the unfolding story. In truth, this situation is much larger and more significant than I can explain right now. It’s still unfolding nearly two months later!

More of this story began to unfold when I finally had a chance to sit down and watch some YouTube videos piling up in my queue. My friends Samantha, Allison and Will (Out on a Limb Podcast) had posted their April Oracle Cards episode nearly a week before I got to it and I was floored when I got to the end where Allison did her bit. When you watch this clip, it’s notable the emotion she was feeling, but I sat there listening to her, doing math. I was trying to determine when exactly they filmed that episode because I started to suspect that her reading coincided exactly with the moment I was calling out to Sophia that Saturday afternoon. Keep reading »

I wrote to Allison the minute I saw their episode. I told her, “I think that was about me!” Later that evening, she and Will did a private channeled session with The Collective who explained that yes, indeed, the card reading was tied to my experience.

The Collective Confirms: Together, you opened a space beyond Source

The following is the audio clip from that private session. The transcript follows if you prefer to read it.

Transcript

[Allison] So did I assist Suzanne in her transition out of this unworthiness, this self-loathing, that she went through one weekend? And was it her and Source that I was feeling during that April Oracle card reading? What was I doing to help her? She senses it was me there.

[The Collective] For this is precisely one of the moments you have a question about. For at the moment you were working with the cards, you felt an energetic opening, you felt a very deep heart-centered expansion that went well beyond the location you were in.

Now, at that moment, Suzanne herself … she too was in a place in which to receive, but in a place in which the heart-centeredness was expanded well beyond her localized energy field. She found herself in a place in which she wished to enter into the depths of the quantum field, The All, the connectedness, that place of Source … however you wish to understand it. But she allowed the barriers that keep her energy within her own energetic field … [she] lowered them so [her consciousness] could expand well out into the universe.

So yes, at that moment you intertwined.

Why? Because at the soul level, both of you are intertwined in a very unique orchestration of energies. You could understand it simply within your humanness, as the understanding of soul sisters, or soulmates, even to that extent. But it is a bit beyond that. Think of it as two masters that have gone their separate ways over periods of time, great periods of time, and when they come back into recognition of one another, it is a uniting. It is a reuniting of energies. And it is the mastership of both, that is not only teaching one, but teaching the other.

So when you opened yourself at that moment, within the cards, to allow your heart-centeredness to expand well beyond your physical location, your energetic sphere, it was united with hers. And for what you were bringing forth within the words that you brought forward, the intuition of knowledge that you brought forward, It was the energy of that, that was heard directly [by Suzanne] to begin to alleviate much of the discomfort, discordance and understanding, allowing pure integration to begin.

Yes, a healing.

So, you both were present in that space. A space of non-existence, but yet a space in which all can be created. A space, yes, if you wish to understand it, [that] is Source, [but] which is well beyond Source [as well]. It is a space which you have created for one another, so that both could be present within it, and allow this union to take place.

Bonus: how We opened a space “beyond Source”

The information above stunned both of us. Often, spirit isn’t exactly forthcoming with a lot of detail, but I’ve noticed within that last year or so, they seem to be revealing significantly more. We both let that setting for a number of days. Then at the end of April, I decided to do another personal session with them where we had the chance to ask for more information. The following clip is from that session. Just be aware, that my higher self likes to explain the mechanics of the universe – no surprise right? I love to explain the mechanics of the universe! But just a warning that this gets a bit dense. I share it here for those who’ll probably follow and appreciate the eye-opening explanation.

Transcript

[Allison] Well that was amazing thank you for that and lastly I wonder if you could answer this question about the two of us I had a vision about being outside of the 12 and was then informed that Suzanne and I met for assistance together in a space that was beyond Source is what it was called. So what about this idea that she and I have worked together outside of this universe? Is that where we come from? Can you talk to us about that? 

[Suzanne’s Higher Self] Simply put, it will be addressed in a number of different steps. All humans, all humans, no matter from what point to now, they all have that aspect of being outside of your universe, that the Twelve has constructed. Many of them never, many never perceive it that way. But for you and Suzanne, and a very small number of others, because of how you have orchestrated this lifetime, meaning the openness by which information freely flows, and the understanding of it, not just the perception of it, but the understanding of it … many humans get perceptions, but don’t understand … you perceive, you understand. You’ve seen the glimpse beyond the wall, the barrier, the construct of this universe. That’s all this is, is a construct. 

Now, beyond that, as it has been explained to you, there’s Source upon Source upon Source, and it gets a bit diluted at that point. The energy that exists beyond your existence, this universe, that is a greater experience than anything that you’re going to experience as far as your Source or any other entity. But it isn’t going to be a place in which it is overwhelming. It will be almost as if it is a very mundane energy force, because it is. Because it is of the greater existence of everything. 

You cannot contextualize what that means in your humanness. It’s difficult to understand even outside of this universe or the multiverses that are within this construct that you exist in. It’s difficult for the human to even perceive what is beyond your stars or even to the depths of your ocean. So yes, you two, you and many others on this planet, a small handful, have the recognition that there is this existence, beyond this existence if it were. 

What lies beyond that is a very gentle mundane energy force that exists and it is that, of everything. What can you learn from that? There isn’t much that you’re going to pull from, to bring into this lifetime to understand. There are many layers to buffer that within your consciousness. It isn’t designed, this existence that you exist in isn’t designed to pull from that dimensional point, that existent point. If you were to do so, if that was a possibility that you could step beyond the bounds of this existence, out beyond where it all began, the smallest bit of knowledge that you would gather would then disrupt the entirety of all existence that is now and ever has been and will be.

You have to understand the complexities that are involved. This is even why within your humanness to be revealed certain aspects of your own contract … it is well enough that you see that layer of it, that aspect of it, but yet you still have the aspect of free will and you can make choices beyond what you even know. When you understand what lies beyond that, there is no free will involved. You know it. And that knowing is a disruptive force for the existence that you currently exist within. 

It is a… there isn’t a word for it. It exists beyond your realm. It exists beyond your existence, but yet it holds the infinite understanding of everything, not just your humanity, not just your universe or the multiverses the quantum field it is everything and just a grain of sand of that knowledge would shift this existence off its access and create catastrophic ripples throughout the system.

[Allison] Wow. So, even though when we transition from this lifetime and go to the Source of humanity, we don’t necessarily get a glimpse of that. 

[Suzanne’s Higher Self] We do not. 

[Allison] And it’s interesting, the word mundane is not what I would have used to describe that type of energy. 

[Suzanne’s Higher Self] For you are used to explaining energy in a way in which it is overwhelming. You’re used to experiencing energy in your human form that is more complex than you would understand. So it’s going to be disruptive. But because of the entirety of what exists, the infinite expanse of what exists beyond, if you were to be introduced to it in your human form, you would not even know that you’re being introduced to it. Because it is so much that it feels as if it is nothing. But it is everything. So this is why it is to be expressed as mundane it is just it is but it is everything. 

[Allison] And will we ever as a soul experience that?

[Suzanne’s Higher Self] Before as a human soul no. Now when you transition out of the human body, yes, you go back to your your human Source. If you choose not to come back into the human form you can choose to take on any other existence within this experience, this universe or this multiverse that you exist in, that you choose, but if you choose to exit it, once you exit, you do not return. 

Very few exit this experience. This is why, over time, many feel as if they are trapped within this experience. We’re not trapped. You have been brought forward into this experience purposefully. This is, in itself, its own experience. Just as outside of this multiverse that you exist in, there are other multiverses that exist. They exist within it. And within that. And within that. And within that, there’s another greater existence that all of it exists in. And within that, there’s a greater existence. 

You understand … it’s an exponent. It keeps going. It’s an infinite experience. So just as you peer out into the night sky and you focus on one tiny star, that is one tiny star amongst many that you do not see. That is exactly your experience here. So do not try to focus beyond something that you cannot comprehend. Rather, devote your focus on understanding what exists here. The amount of infinite information that you have at hand here in this lifetime and all other lifetimes that you’ve existed in and will exist in … no matter the form that you take, if more effort is put forth in understanding what is present with you than what could be beyond you, then you’ll truly understand why you’ve chosen this lifetime.

Where Do I go from here?

This saga is not over yet. I’m in the middle of it. The next stage has made itself known on this full moon in Scorpio and you can find that bit in my other post entitled, Full Moon in Scorpio, 8th House, Avoidant Attachment Style and Sovereignty.

Permission was granted to post the clips from Out on a Limb Podcast and the audio from Will and Allison’s private session.

If you’d like to have Will channel your higher self for you, reach out to Allison and she’ll help coordinate a session for you.